isolated

我發覺
是不是因為在討論的時候很有挫折感
所以就不想跟人講話(變相的逃避)

走過的路沒有一條路會是白走的

感謝小桃子讓我做這麼多繁雜的 windows 的系統設定的工作

(雖然 programming 專家CS 的人很多人不喜歡 windows)

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傷人的人永遠不會了解自己做的那些事有多傷人

不想和其他人一樣

我不知道那些想法是一種偏執
還是 其實背後都有著一個不願承認的原因

we are only human

人的情緒不是單一的

just about the timing

It's mixed feelings when you find you are glad not being into someone more from seeing his recent pic after you haven't seen him for long time. :/

I love my family

再度體會到家人是這世界上唯一會無私付出,永遠不會離開你的人,
我愛我的爸媽姐姐和弟弟!!  我不想離開你們 ~~>.<~~

(不過  是不是還是要長大  學習獨立和離開? 要找到平衡點好難)

父母

我真的很幸運能有這世界上最好的父母
但是在你全心為我們付出的同時
我更希望的是  當我們不在身邊的時候  你能快樂的過自己的生活

(note. 爸爸在35度的炎炎夏日中午走路去買我們愛吃的肉粽  走得滿身大汗)

消極

不論好事壞事總是有負面的觀點
也許因為路上有經過過那些石頭
所以提醒自己放寬心胸  看事情的光明面

莫忘初衷
不要忘記當初選擇的原因

low profile

I think I don't feel belonging to this place although I've been here for almost two years. It may be because most of my coworkers have their families and have to go home right after work, I have very few female friends here and for me here is just a city for work. I even thought I won't be sad on the day of leaving untill my coworkers arrange a farewell party for me. They are all really nice, but I still would like to keep a low profile.

勇敢追夢?

為什麼大家都跟我說 你這樣勇敢追夢很好, 趁年輕的時候 還有機會實現夢想

可是我從來不覺得那叫 '夢'
充其量只是往某一個目標慢慢前進而已
每往前踏一步　就更接近目標一點

為了一棵樹放棄一片森林

人生永遠不會知道現在的選擇是對或錯
也不知道往前一步會看到一片森林或是荒蕪一片
活的健康和快樂才是最重要的事

別人的眼光

這世界上不免有些喜歡看好戲的人
如果我會在意  而改變我的行為  那這就真的不是我了

掙扎

為什麼一直在現實和理想中拉扯
少那十幾萬塊錢會怎麼樣?  >"<

語言

常常覺得我的英文很糟糕
如果是精神不好的時候又要說英文
根本不知道自己在講甚麼
不只是糗到想鑽到地洞裡
整個會覺得很沮喪
可以預料到以後這事會不斷發生
死定了我
能不能講中文或是隨便講個中式英文就好?  >"<

I'm Taiwanese which I could never change

FAE: "the system is in David there"

google translated this clause to: 該系統是在大衛那裡

Just perfect!

I think I'll definitely miss this kind of English in the future.... :)

往前看

Don't regret once you've made up your mind.

touched...

when a friend says : I worry about you so much... I am touched because I know there is somebody caring about me on the planet. Thank you...

單純

長大了才發現原來要保有小時候的單純並不容易

為什麼要我寫這封信?

Hi A, B,

C was hoping you to confirm the pnpids of some platforms. Please help to take a look at this issue, either to provide the pnpids or to remove those platforms.

為什麼要我當你們 FAE 的溝通橋樑? 你們自己不會溝通好嗎? 太鳥了!!!

slow pace...

Recently, I find I really like the slow-paced life which is very different to the life I had in the past few months. Don't rush at drive especially. Then I can enjoy the present more. That's great. But at the same time, I still confuse a bit about the meaning of life and the future plan.....How complex human-being is!
 

竟然哭了

看康熙來了 "我的小孩穿的才時尚" 居然看到哭了

I think I know what I'm missing, what I want.....

it's sad that.....

當發現無法 concentrate 在自己曾經很享受的事時
真是有如當頭棒喝
醒醒阿!

why so serious!?

有時候我想
在選擇工作或做任何決定的時候，
為什麼要要求這麼高、計畫這麼周全，
當這成為負面壓力，使得自己擔心太多的時候，
就沒辦法好好享受當下 T_T

再次覺得"中庸之道"是個很深奧的道理

My ten years

Suddenly realized I've posted on this blog for ten years since April/9/2005. Time flies definitely.

I'm glad I could keep recording my life here even though these days blogs are not the most popular way that people share their life with others, and I don't know if there is anybody who would look at my blog. But it's not a matter. Just think it's great to have a space to say something I see, feel and think, and keep writing.

There is no songs better than this for the ten year anniversary. :)

疼妳的責任_品冠

要你是最快樂最單純的人
因為你讓我的心變得豐盛　
原來不奢望的變成可能
　
讓你做最輕鬆最自然的人
我想不遮掩也是一種信任　
愛的瞭解包容才算愛得完整

修練

花了半天的時間反覆 download/un-install/install，終於成功後，發現 FAE 所報的 issue 根本不會發生.....所以呢？

然後我想，我花這麼多時間，到底在做甚麼？獲得了甚麼？感覺有點無力且沒有成就感。

後來我想到 Mike 曾經跟我說的，在不同的位置有不同的責任，如果解決各大大小小繁雜的 issue，是你這工作的任務，那當妳分析釐清了這些問題，妳是不是應該覺得開心？

的確是這樣沒錯。扮演不同角色的時候，也要記得轉換心境。

教育父母

我一直想，我這樣的想法是不是很奇怪...

從小就被教導要孝順父母，
被教導父母年紀大各項能力退化的當下，我們要學習體諒，我們要想從我們剛出生甚麼都不會的時候，父母也是耐心細心的教導我們。

這些道理都沒錯，我也覺得我大部分時間有做到，
但是同時我也想，很多人說父母不要溺愛孩子，要讓孩子學習獨立接受挫折；
當父母給予孩子富足的生活的同時，可能造成的是孩子對於物質的不滿足。
那反過來，孩子對於父母是不是也一樣？是不是也會造成父母過度的依賴？

you are special

「合理，因為她是很特別的女人，一般男人不愛。」

although I believe every person is unique....

Warm

當一個有溫度的人...

Dead

Feel like being dead these days....besides work, what else I did in my daily life? I might need some stimulation to my life...either go to exhibitions, movies or take cooking/baking/English class. Need some exercise to help me go back to normal life as well.....

No passion

It's been just nine days, how can I feel it's that long? I might have taken a break long enough, but still don't have passion at all now. feeling too low to move on....

why so serious?

Why so serious!!!? bxxxsxxt

Bugs are created by ourselves

It's not my business but I just don't think it's good for the entire project development.

Usability

我真的很想埋各 counter 在我們 program 裡，

去統計使用者用各種 gesture 的次數。

annual work plan

一個在年度工作計畫上連續寫了兩年的項目
在最近終於要量產 終於要 transfer 給 taiwan team 終於有點事做
結果主要不是我做  換別人做了

這裡有我看過最無意義&最型式化的工作計畫和評量
很了不起!

Life

Life is a long and lonely journey. All we could do is keeping moving on.

不應該勇敢

take it easy

take a deep breath and slow down...... am angry \_/

Weak

Suddenly, not confident, strong and hopeful at all.......

千里之外

'那薄如蟬翼的未來 禁不起誰來拆'

太美的歌詞.....

View from your house

When thinking about what kind of house I would like, the VIEW is very important for me. It might be because we have a fabulous view from my parents' place now. I enjoy in the view I see at the first moment I wake up on the morning. It's really a perfect start to a new day.

I'm seeing the view through the window at my place now and wondering why it's not as joyful as when I am at my parents' place. The views I have from these two places are both similar buildings, roads...etc. I guess the reason might be the belonging of a place. No matter where I live, my hometown is always my hometown which fulls of memories and love. It can never be changed.

一個人, 最好

http://www.commonhealth.com.tw/article/article.action?id=5014141&page=1

it's the true independence, but not Chinese culture at all.

upset

feeling low on the first work day 2014. damn >"<
I want a vacation...

I'm wondering...why I keep to expect to be a stronger person? Is it possible to be that strong? Is it reasonable to push yourself more? since we are human.