Birthday of 2013

剛過午夜收到的第一聲祝福
意外發現 google 專門為壽星改變的 birthday doodle
早上起床出房間門聽到第一聲爸爸說的生日快樂
中午開車上班路上接連現在同事群和以前同事群從手機傳來的生日快樂
同事們陪我請我吃薑母鴨晚餐
下班回家收到的驚喜
還有大家在 facebook 上的祝福訊息

沒有出國去玩 自己一個人 但卻是充滿溫暖的一天
Thank and love you all! :)

last week of 2013

又到了每年的最後一個星期...充滿假日的一周
不知道多久年沒和家人一起過生日了
不知道多久沒在生日去上班了
但今年的生日  我想應該會去上班吧

never give up

人生就像拔河
不到終點絕不放棄

特別

從大學開始 就一直處在自己跟其他人不同的環境
很多時候整個 team 裡都只有一兩個女生
我一直期望我可以不只是性別突出  工作表現也突出
雖然不見得是這樣
現在卻也甘於平凡
真的很想 fade in 在整個 team 裡就好

弱

為什麼我這麼弱？ 真的太讓人沮喪了

Taxi

Finally, you realized calling a taxi is much more convenient than any other friends....
It's the way to live alone. Not bad, eh?

Friends

有個東西在這匆忙的世界
我們一直擁有著它卻也一再失去
那就是溫度
想想 好像最需要的只是一個朋友

I hope I could be the person who makes my friends feel happy.

Frustrated

These days, usually feel very sleepy about 11pm, yesterday first time I woke was at 3am, then 7am this morning. Really tired with this kind of sleep pattern. I know myself that is because I'm stressed of work and life. I am not satisfied with that now, but do I have enough encourage and confidence to make the change? Age or time is the big concern. I don't want to waste time but also am old to do something at some perspective.

Even when it's not right!!!

"Why do we fall in love so easy

Even when it's not right"

- Try by P!nk

Forgiving

It's not easy to forgive someone and to accept someone's shortages. But have to learn.

Blessings to those couples

有時候
看到那些貼上FB的情侶照我很羨慕他們可以這樣大方的公開
但我又想
過了一段時間  究竟有誰會真正在意呢?

Take it easy

Should be stronger, but also take life easily, don't push yourself too hard.....

Compromise

Compromising is the most important fact to being with a person. But people is willing to do that only if he/she is in love with her/him.

正好看到:
如果在婚姻裡, 包容和忍耐超過了愛, 這樣可以維持多久呢?
-含苞欲墜的每一天

Some thoughts about improving our life

When lying in bed this morning, I was thinking what I can do to improve our life, to help people with my specialities? What did it make when I developed software for TV, touch device? Does it really help people to have a better life? I might have to do something which affects human living.

Tired

I feel I'm really tired of that.......

Being you (One day trip in Ilan)

去了一趟宜蘭, 又充滿了感觸

真的很開心能有這群朋友, 即使大部分的人都已經離開那個 team, 但是每次再見面, 總是很馬上融入, 一點 warm up 的時間都不需要, 就跟我們還每天見面一樣.

Respect yourself

dont lose your mind!

Leave me alone

Could I ?

Here, there

Sleepless

After a wonderful, joyful potluck party, driving in the late night and being back to my sweet home, I felt so calm in the silence, but lonely as well.

It's always good to meet friends that could increases the energy level and motivation, but it makes me feel low sometimes. Life is about the thing of "give and take". What do I have? Why am I so afraid of losing something? Could I take life easily? I was sleepless last night.

Life's better with company. Everyone needs a co-pilot.

那天去騎車
在公園裡遇到一對騎車的夫婦
後來他們變成了我那天騎車的同伴
在道別後又再次遇到
所以我就決定跟著他們  騎田間的小路去中壢

你們不適合噢!

"如果她不喜歡我很重視的事物 那是不是不適合在一起?"

'如果你很在意，因為這點就思考適不適合這件事，我想是因為你不夠愛她'
'個性和習慣可以調整，但愛是沒辦法勉強的'

到底問題在誰身上?

不期待在 create issue 前都把問題複製過一次，確認問題的確存在，但為什麼你不能把問題複製的過程寫清楚？

試了N次，搞得我自己都覺得自己是不是我出了甚麼問題，所以才無法複製

People say....

While friends think my life is wonderful, I usually feel it's a mess. why?

Gravity

真是我這幾年看過最喜歡 印象最深刻的電影 *love*

next stop

下一站 是天后還是幸福

I wish....

I just wish there is a person who would like to go have a cup of coffee, go for cycling, or watch a movie on  Friday night together....

Computer vision

what is computer vision?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Computer_vision

Sell yourself

當我在準備測驗的時候，我看到有人說 "你的成績由那15分鐘來決定，所以如果你不盡可能的多說，別人怎麼樣也無法了解你的能力，所以你怎麼能期待別人會給你好的成績"

這個想法一直在很多地方影響著我。雖然總是覺得考試或是30分鐘的面談很不公平，但是在沒有更好的方法前，得要學著推銷自己。以前可能對於可以把話說得很好聽這件事很不屑，但是現在慢慢可以理解這樣的事。

總之，出發點就是，你只有那短短的時間，你需要把最好的自己表現出來，讓別人看到，否則，即使身懷絕技，也沒有人會知道。

"讓這世界看到"也是最近體會到的很重要的點。

世界

"這世界最遙遠的距離" 和 "這世界這麼大卻找不到自己的容身之處" 有異曲同工之妙!

故事

每個故事都獨一無二
每個故事都值得被紀念

it's OUR choice

indeed....

Be sure you love your choice, because eventually no one other than you will care about that, will be influenced by that.

Gotta get up

Except for learning to accept the fact that something valuable you might lose someday, one more important thing is to learn to get up when you fall down.

I feel frustrated every time......it's really really really not easy. Should get up and practice to express my thoughts and emotions more.

創意

我在想

"創意/創新" 這東西真的換到西方國家的環境就比較容易出現嗎?

其實不然吧

我猜 在那樣環境下教育的人能有比較靈活的思考

但是還需要靠多看多學 多想 才能激發出創意

學習失去

我們都要的太多
忘了我們已經擁有的
忘了學習失去

After that trip...

在時空交錯的夢裡
過去現在重要的人一一出現
旅行的感覺很好
像是到了一個完全不同的世界
不用思考未來工作和人生

心情不好的時候就去看飛機吧

You know you'd better to make every moment the most in your life, but..yes.. it's hard sometimes. When you are upset, go to see the planes :)

這個世界真的很奇妙,太多意料之外的事,
我真的很希望我保有小女孩單純的心就好,
我真的很希望我的人生可以很平凡就好

總舖師

我想 紙箱之於夏于喬 就像是 中午手中的傘之於我吧...

I know that's not easy but be happy please!!

Many thanks

Woke up with a bad mood, and I tried hard to cheer up...As I recall those thoughts you share with me, feel much stronger. It really encourages me. Wanna say thank you that I learned to be positive, to always have faith in myself from you....

蕭煌奇 - 末班車

Song for the first work day of September, the beginning of my second year here.

休假

很多西方人的休假方式是放個一兩星期的假
待在幾個城市, 悠閒的旅行, 然後生活
如果我有很多假, 我也希望我的旅行是這樣的模式
我想這才是真正的放鬆

Change...

When walking to the MRT station today, I realized I need some thing diffirent to stimulate my mind indeed. If you don't like a bit of your life, you should change it, not just let time go second by second.

From 8 or 9 months ago, I found out there are some problems, but I have to wait to see. Almost a year passed, have been in a mess for long time, it's time to take that into consideration. Maybe just slow down, take a break now........

Dido - Life for rent

I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cause there's really nothing left here to stop me

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cause nothing I have is truly mine

Not only about opening your heart

You should be strong enough and learn to control/manage your emotions. Or you'll get hurt, once you open your heart.

婚後3年，決定你一輩子的幸福

http://www.businessweekly.com.tw/KBlogArticle.aspx?id=4290

"童話故事中每對王子公主的結局總是「從此之後他們過著幸福快樂的日子」，讓我們以為婚姻是所有苦難與逆境的終點，只要經歷過了痛苦，與相愛的人結婚，就再也不須努力"

I get this point of view from a friend recently as well. It's what I didn't realize before...

Your preparation is everything

"There are so many variables in life where things have to line up for things to happen. In all of that, your preparation is everything. Learn whatever you have to learn, train however you have to train, to get the best out of yourself."

- Hugh Jackman

the truth

After experiencing something you thought it was strange before, you thought it's whole life.
But the reality is that no matter how old you are, there is always something which you never expect being able to happen.

perfection

"Perfection is not of the world, they say. Perhaps not, yet that is what we aim for...."

from [Pierre Marcolini]

真實的世界

我想 逮丸郎真的不要妄自菲薄 月亮真的不是都是外國的比較圓!

I think.....

「李大仁，你不會愛我是因為你沒眼光，所以看不到我有多值得被愛！我告訴你，『我超不錯的』好不好！」

What's the most important reason to make the decision to quit?

If there is some knowledge, skills I can learn from a job, I'll stay. If not, it'd be better to look for another one. Dose that make sense?

Review my job now, although I program not much (is it ironic that I'm a "software" engineer?), I can learn something new about Windows driver, interface protocol....etc. not bad eh? Try to broaden your horizon.

Take That - Patience

Compromise

Sometimes I think if i'm not realistic about life, work and partner at all. I chose the wrong side most of the time. Nothing is perfect. Life is meant to be compromise. You would never know which one is better when making a decision.

In some way, it's not absolutely good to grow too strong. Need is a necessary to make you moving on. If I say I don't need that much money, I don't need love, could I get those I lost back? Realizing that I have less that passion and desire really makes me upset about myself.

Be strong, be independent because you are alone

"旁人如何看待根本不必煩惱，畢竟要收拾殘局的，都不會是在一旁指指點點的局外人"
from: http://okapi.books.com.tw/index.php/p3/p3_detail/sn/2160

The most useful line in these recent years. Keep this in mind. Except for your family and yourself, no one really cares about you. What kind of car/house you have, how pretty your gf is, which company you work for..... who cares?

The Great Gastby

"No one's past was meant to be used as a device for torture."

Woundering

When I was driving home, I was wondering that if I live my life like most people do. I supposed to have my own family now, but then? Is it good or bad? What else do I have?

Compromise

我想我還無法 compromise.

Loneliness

清晨醒來

突然的孤獨感  讓我想起Vancouver

一個人的孤獨

在這世界的哪個角落

有誰看到
有什麼不同

Dream

It's the first time I dreamed that dream. A little surprised, upset when I woke up

It's like something is gone from my life totally and what I have now are only memories.

世界雖然殘酷，我們還是....

This is what I'm wondering these days.....
"因為追求夢想，人生繞了一大圈很遠的路，但那不是他的錯，因為他真真實實地努力過" 

Another two sentences about love. It's obvious but people rarely can be like that (love yourself!). 
"當一個人在精神層次上自給自足之後，他的愛會變的非常自由，他可以愛別人，但是不求回報，他在愛別人的過程中得到快樂和滿足"  "如果你真的愛我的話，先把自己的人生過好"

Ps. it's a book worthy to read so far. Most topics are about this society from education to the tough working environment. Regarding the point view of the restrictions on us from the last generation and the Chinese culture, I feel so lucky that my parents never do plans which they thought we should obey. We always can make our own decisions. :)

Get up and keep moving

The most difficult thing is when you fail, when you feel upset, you still have to ask yourself to get up and have faith in yourself that you can achieve the goal even though you are exhausted already.

Take it easy

Life is hard and tough, but don't put too much pressure on yourself. There is nothing being a must to do. Just take a break when needed. :)

Some lines

life is meant to be shared

partnership is about compromise but it is also only true way to share

no partner is perfect

but we're just human anyway

don't need perfection

perfection is too selfish and self-centered

Lucky

I feel I'm so lucky i still have you all and am really touched because of your kind help. You all let me know how beautiful the world is. Wish me good luck... just a little more.

No pain, no gain

no pain, no gain.

Global mind

What makes you a global mind?

女人有兩件事不可以相信

Just hearing this on the radio:

女人有兩件事不可以相信
1. 別人說妳漂亮
2. 男人的感情

totally AGREE!!!

Ready?

"Always be ready to challenge yourself"

Photographer

"see the world through my eyes"

Bad Girl

You make me feel like I'm a crazy, terrible person. Am I that bad?

Friends

Although you asked me if I know what "hipster" means and it made me upset again several days ago, still have to thank you for always thinking about me and asking if I want some of my favorite snacks from your hometown when you are back to there. When I read your messages, I feel my tears are going to drop every time. It's so heartwarming. That's what *real friend* is.

And, also thank you for always sending me a postcard when you travel.

I'm so lucky having lots of good friends who always care about me.

Facebook

I guess I'd leave facebook in the near future but just keep blogging and flickring. Usually expecting from others too much and being purposeful when putting something on Facebook.

"You hate but you can't leave it."

Give me a punch!

Who can give me a punch now? It would be better to let me either awake or fainted.

Everything

You have nothing means you have EVERYTHING in some way actually.

Comfort zone

Finally I realized there is also the comfort zone in relationships. It's upset because I found the comfort zone is where I am by myself.

人生的分水嶺

有沒有必要把35歲當成一個分水嶺?
很多時候我可以很豁達，為了改變可以放下很多事，
但是對於最好在35歲前完成的事，我卻依然堅持著。
因為這樣，所以得放棄一些自己的想法，
不過如果只在乎自己，人生才過了三十幾年，還有五六十年，
那是不是一些事現在做也還不嫌晚？

我是個善良的人嗎?

LRL : 你是阿
me: 但我怎麼覺得我不是

Ruin

You know its you who ruined it, but why you still feel so sad?

It's ruined by facebook or by yourself actually?
Won't do that kind of stupid thing any more.

愛

愛是很恐怖的東西
一不小心就會變成恨
就會因為愛人而傷害人
沒成為善良的人之前
不要隨便害人

偷來的

她很直率, 總是講出很多我心裡的話

"很希望我有個肩膀可以依靠,但是我一直都是我自己!"

還有講過像是什麼....
"不管誰結婚,不要叫我去參加你們的婚禮,我沒辦法很大方的看著你們幸福的樣子,說祝你們幸福"

過去的美好

所有曾經發生的美好事物都是過去的美好

打擊率

"就算是第一名也只有三成多的打擊率"

也就是有一半以上的機會不是好的結果，這就是人生，要接受失敗是常態，不過只要有上場打擊，就有機會打出全壘打。

蹉跎

昨天黃大衛說的一句不要蹉跎光陰，影響了我的心情很多。

有些時候，可以假裝沒看到一些事，所以會活的快樂一些，但是當有人提醒，你被迫去面對的時候，你就知道其實該面對的還是得面對。不會因為暫時忘記，那些事就不存在。

我想現在就算是給我一張機票，也沒辦法解決問題。好哀傷。

存在感

沒錯，我想就是所謂的存在感。

preparing for tomorrow

Should keep the thinking in mind that it's not for a specified purpose or person to do something and learn something. It's all for yourself. Doing what you like makes you become the kind of person that you want to be. You might not achieve the goal soon, but you are always preparing for the coming opportunities. Only if you do that, you can have the chance to make it.

*Love Yourself*

wiseGEEK

http://www.wisegeek.org/
clear answers for common questions

Upset

I know it might be not my fault or not because I'm not good enough at that. But it really makes me upset.

Could you think positively in this kind of situation? At least, I learned something new, i learned how remote debugging works. huh? bxxxshxt!

What I really learned: should ask for help and discuss with others. Customers/FAEs/your boss only care about if the issue could be solved in time. The way you solve it isn't a matter.

Memory

其實我喜歡 flickr 200 張照片的限制

只要加進一張新的照片
就有一張舊的照片消失

就跟回憶一樣
過去的就該讓它過去

大樓管理員

自從住有管理員的大樓後，我就覺得大樓管理員是厲害的腳色。

失落沙洲

totally lost

TED: The power of vulnerability

還是要用 blog 記一下，不然以後都撈不到了

TED: the power of vulnerability
http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html

St. Threath: 『我輸給了脆弱，但是我贏回了我的人生。』

what a grey friday

又冷又下雨

一進辦公室收 mail , 就看到美國的 code review 給了 follow up , 要把 code 加到今天要 weekly build 的 code 裡 , 然後, 還有莫名其妙的 fae or 廠商, 一個 run application 的路徑反反覆覆改了三四次, 也一定要加到今天的 weekly build, 是嫌我們沒事做嗎

然後有版 release 給廠商的 code 回報有問題, 要幫 fae 測是不是真的有問題, 一定要在今天回覆

每個都說今天每個都說很 urgent, 本來在做的 function 也很 urgent, 但一直被 interrupt, 我怎麼做啊

煩死了!!!!

血鑽石 Blood Diamond

你可以閉上你的眼睛去避開那些不想看到的，但你無法關上你的心去避開那些不想感受的。

You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.

About Singapore

Still 4 hours wait for my plane back to TW, writing down my feelings after this 4 days trip in Singapore.

Being curious, exploring the world

下午開車去內湖，做完該做的事，順便繞了內湖一圈，從內湖到大湖公園，到東湖，然後上高速公路往南。

Cheer up

"You should be happy."

'如果離開你是現在唯一會讓我變開心的方法呢'

34歲

我的34歲過了快四分之一，到了某個歲數，對於家庭對於小孩，想法有大大的轉變。雖然依舊期待幸福美好的事發生，不過人生就是這樣，不是自己完全可以掌控。結婚會離婚，離婚可以再結婚，天底下沒有一件事嚴重到可以打垮一個人，何況像很多人跟我說的那樣....you are still young( >"< )。只要相信，就會遇到真正適合的人。

魔羯座

摩羯喜歡一個人待著，想自己的心事，做自己的事情，沉醉於自己的世界。摩羯情緒波動較大：為一件事情可以心情突然就陰翳下來，有時候無由來的煩躁、憂鬱。但摩羯心地很善良，同情弱者，常常喜歡打抱不平，敢愛敢恨。討厭虛偽做作、華而不實、虛情假意、玩弄心計，搬弄是非。

她說

HYi說: 但是妳的人生過的很精采

可是我怎麼從來沒這樣覺得過

人常常忘了自己擁有的
人常常要的太多

cheer up :)

Why do you learn languages?

看完了褚士瑩的給自己的十堂外語課，
妳為什麼要學外語呢？
除了看這個大世界, 還有呢？

Dead

I feel I'm going to die... really.

佛跳牆 BuddhaJump_我對自己開了一槍

nice

Tears

難過到極致的時候是流不出眼淚的。

Why so serious

Perfection is not always about control, it's about letting go.

- Black swan

Simple life

Missing the simple life in the past.....

看見

我想

是不會有人發現
是不會被看見的



我是宇宙間的塵埃 漂泊在這茫茫人海
在這茫茫人海裡 我不要變得透明

just do it

If you want something you've never had, then you've got to do something you've never done.

末了

現在的工作就像在拯救癌症末期的病患
知道有一天生命終將結束
但依舊要抱著希望  想辦法解決目前遭遇到的問題
我還能做些甚麼呢？

Feel upset

There is no passion, no motivation.
I hope it's only the periodical emotion.
:[

C'est la vie

看到加拿大的室友  想到我自己
人真的不能嘴硬

這就是人生 C'est la vie

Asia miles

記一下信用卡點數轉 Asia miles 的過程

Citi 1/16 申請 , 1/17 進入 Asia miles 帳戶
Citi 網站上說要 3天~3週的時間 , 真是出乎意料之外的有效率 , 雖然被盜刷過 , 但還是繼續用這張卡好了

Anz 1/16 申請 , 到現在還是什麼都沒看到. Add: 1/17 進入 Asia miles 帳戶

學不會_林俊傑

This's always my favorite.

總是學不會 再聰明一點

記得自我保護 必要時候講些 善意謊言

總是學不會 真愛也有現實面

不是誰情願 就能夠解決

還是學不會 少浪漫一點

拼命著想的事 未必帶來感動 或被感謝

不是學不會 只是覺得愛 太美

值得去沉醉 流淚